Here we are again

Okay, I suck at blogging.


That being said, I'll give it another go.


Update: Since my last entry life has drastically changed.


First Major Event, HAD A BABY- April 21st, 2012 (a horrid 10 days after my due date) Edward Thomas made his long awaited appearance. I spent the week prior to his birth date in almost constant contractions that were large enough to be uncomfortable, but too small to send me into active labor. Finally, on the morning of the 21st I was induced. Good times, let me tell you. People say you forget the pain once you see your baby, LIARS. Fast forward 7 1/2 horrible hours and one glorious epidural later, the most precious little face TJ and I have ever seen arrived in the world. A healthy 7 lbs 3 oz, screaming like a banshee, beautiful baby boy.

Having said all that, he was completely worth it. We are completely in love. TJ, true to his nature, is quietly and steadily in love. And I, true to my nature, am practically dancing and shouting my love from the rooftops (or facebook). The first month went by in a flash (so why did it feel like it lasted forever while it was happening?), and the second month even faster. Now that our little man is developing a better sleeping pattern, and a general routine, things have gotten much easier. We have been able to begin focusing on each other as a couple again, and have been able spend time doing some of the things we love. It is so important to us both, that as our son grows he sees his parent's relationship as rock solid and ever based on Christ. We know that one of the best ways to teach him about God's love, is to demonstrate it in our every day life. We're not perfect, but if we can raise our baby boy to grow into a Godly man, then I will be well pleased.

Second Major Event, MOVED- Two days after Edward was born, the house TJ and I had our hearts set on to buy, fell through. It's a long story but to sum it up, the house needed a lot of TLC and we made the decision that with a baby, it was too much to handle. I feel now when I look back that God's hand was there, leading us to where we are now. As soon as the house was no longer an option, we hopped on Craigslist to look for a new apartment. We had done this prior to deciding on buying a house, but had given up as any decent two bedroom apartments we could find in the area cost more then we would be paying on a mortgage. But desperate times called for desperate measures, and sure enough we found a newly listed available apartment. "Two Bedrooms, New Windows, New Carpet, Country Setting, Lots of Light, Washer and Dryer Hookups, Minutes from Clarks Summit, Pet Friendly, Centeral Air, Rent-Everything Included Except Electricity" Seriously? Could that sound any more perfect? To make it even better, it was located right in the middle of all the towns TJ works in. Really, perfect. We went to check it out that very night, and the whole time we were looking at it TJ and I just kept looking at each other like "Really? Is this real?" After having spent so much time looking for an apartment before and finding nothing, this place just seemed too good to be true. I realize now that this is just where God had wanted us, he was in complete control of the whole situation. Such a comforting thing to know!

Third Major Event, I QUIT MY JOB- Okay, so this was the least expected event. We knew we were having a baby, and we knew we were moving. But right up until Edward arrived I was determined to return to work after 8 weeks of pregnancy leave. I heard a story once about another woman I know, her husband tells it this way, "My wife was sure she'd return to work after our baby came, and nothing anyone said would change her mind. The day we brought our son home from the hospital she looked at me, burst into tears, and wailed "I can't leave this baby!!!" Well, I know exactly how that woman felt now, because that's basically what happened to me. Within a week of bringing Edward home, I knew in my heart that I wanted nothing more then to stay with him, and the idea of leaving him in the care of ANYONE else made me feel sick. I guess it's a mom thing. Still, I planned to return to work, mostly because I felt like I had no right to stay home. I had a perfectly healthy baby, and a good job that was willing to let me go to part time. What right had I to stay home? The decision to return was made even harder by the move to the new apartment which put us almost an hour from my office, a unrealistic distance to travel three times a week. After I spent some time in inner-turmoil, TJ made the final call. He told me he worked very hard for me and Edward, and that maybe I should stop worrying so much and let him provide. I realized as soon as he said this that he was right, I needed to stop worrying so much and trust him as he has never failed to take care of me before. I was also told by another working mom I know, that she would give anything to be home with her kids, and that I was "a fool" if I didn't see the great opportunity I have." So that cinched it, I'm staying home with the little guy. At least for now, once he is a bit older I will most likely begin working part time again. I do actually enjoy office work, and appreciate the feeling of accomplishment I get from it.  For now though, Chief Domestic Engineer I shall be.


That pretty much sums it all up for now. Let's see how long it takes me to get another entry in here now, haha!